Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Monday, August 24, 2009

Barely Visible

23 August 2009

Sadly foreign beings

22 August 2009

Much more peaceful than San Jo.

21 August 2009

What a sweet fat one!

20 August 2009

Theresa!! we miss you

19 March 2009

A rather musical household, even if not always harmonious.

18 August 2009

Lackey meetings cover only the most important issues.


17 August 2009

pher rockin the stache

Always in the same spot... doing nothing...

16 August 2009


Sunday, August 16, 2009

15 August 2009

What a gorgeous day in San Francicso! In typical Bartz fashion we did about a ten mile, fast paced walk through the Presidio to the Golden Gate Bridge and then through the city to make it back in time for bowling! Jessica also made us some very delicious food. What fun!

14 August 2009

Tiff, Shane, and I went on a great hike in Alum Rock Park!

Monday, August 10, 2009

9 August 2009

J'espere que ce n'etait pas a cause de la nourriture qu'il est malade aujourd'hui...

8 August 2009

7 August 2009

Quand tu a des choses sur ton mur, est-ce qu'ils disent quelque chose de toi?

6 August 2009

tout est mieux a la plage. (uh, I think. definitely losing my French, especially the spelling part...)

5 August 2009

Apparently my life revolves around my cats....... oh well, qu'est-ce que on peut faire?!

4 August 2009

Monday, August 3, 2009


So Fat

I suppose it's time I actually wrote on my blog like most people seem to do....
And write openly about myself, a difficult task...
I'm not sure how to tell people what's been going on in my life in the past weeks, but maybe if I write about it some it will at least help me. Nelson and I are not staying together. Which is probably a surprise to a few people. I'm sitting here, looking around at all this stuff that we've seemed to have collected over the past years, and it's just impossible to seperate what is 'mine.' How do you separate your past from today, this minute. Eventually it will just sort of fade, like so many relationships, feelings, and ideas seem to...
I'm trying to follow some of the best advice I was given in my life (embrace it), because in truth that's all I can do. And sometimes it works, but my mind is such a mess. I decide every day that I can just be happy, accept that my life is changing in such a huge way, but then I just fall into depression, or desperation, or some other sort of pain. Every hour is a struggle.
Luckily, there seem to be people in my life that truly care about me. Of course, typical of me, I haven't yet told some important people. It's hard to start talking about this sort of thing. But I know the sort of pain I've been going through can make bonds stronger, bring people together. Which it certainly has, with one person in particular. For that I feel so grateful. I don't know what I would have done, or would do, without that love.
There's no anger between Nelson and I, which is wonderful. But that also makes it harder. It's so much easier if you're angry to want to be apart from someone, to want to jump into a different life. And the love between us is very powerful, as I'm sure it always will be, if my future follows the path of my past.
One of the worst things about all of this is that Nelson and I have made other people uncomfortable and unhappy (and disappointed maybe). That, of course, was never, and would never be, an intention of either of us.
I'm so so sad that this part of my life is ending; it was truly wonderful.

2 August 2009

walking their rides

1 August 2009

Saturday, August 1, 2009

31 July 2009

Welcoming party!

According to mom, it's a good thing her face is shadowed. Ridiculous I say!

30 July 2009

Matty loves me! Hearing Mo sing was absolutely amazing! :)